Finding Yourself: Motivation, Inspiration and Passion (Part 1)

Finding yourself is never an easy thing to do. It is a constant battle with yourself as to what you want to do with your life and what is the purpose of your existence. Whether you ask yourself these questions on a regular basis, it is a topic that comes up from time to time. Recently, however, it is a subject matter that has been a constant loop in my mind. Questions like "how do you really find yourself?" and "what is my true passion?" would come up more than I'd like to admit or address. If you're one of the lucky ones who have figured out what they want to do for the rest of their lives, then good for you. You don't need to be reading this entry. Run along now and do your thing.


But for those who are still looking, welcome to a mind that is just like yours. It may be because you grew up witnessing a few more possibilities than you could care to imagine or it could be an environment wherein you are limited to a few opportunities which then rendered you indecisive in the process. Whichever it is, you ended up not realising what your true passion is and you always find yourself doing one thing after another, while constantly waking up to the same question every single day.

I still haven't found my "one true passion". I'm not sure if I actually will, but I'm not losing hope. For now, I think I'm meant to just continue living life and exploring as much as I would like to know about the world and how I can make the world a better place for being what I am and continually changing in the process.

Right now, I'm studying Graphic Design and I love every bit of it. There are days like today wherein my migraines paired with my lack of motivation would prevent me from coming to class, but that doesn't mean I'm not doing the work. I still do it. I still research about Graphic Design, how I can improve my creativity, how I can be more influential and things that would make a Graphic Designer incredible. My heart is still in it.



Then there are days when I would dabble in music and poetry and ask myself how easy it is to just do this instead. I would write songs after songs for hours on end and sometimes, even finish a piece in a matter of 15 to 30 minutes. And yes, I am working on these things too. I am working on how to become a better songwriter and poet. I watch Spoken Words on YouTube, drown myself with the voices of Sarah Kay and Neil Hilborn, and read countless heartbreaking articles just to understand the workings of the mind and how fickle it can be. Because it is fickle.

A few years ago, these things are not even in my horizon. Yes, I would sing a few originals in a pub when the opportunity presents itself or I would create an illustration piece for a beloved on special occasions, but never was it a definite path. And yet, today, here we are.

So, who knows about tomorrow?


At this very moment, one thing is clear. You are reading this. And if you are reading this, then there's a good chance that you are looking for motivation, a glimmer of hope, an inspiration. Maybe, this article helped you see that you are not alone. Maybe, it taught you to just go with the flow. Maybe, you slowly found yourself towards the end. I don't know. But you are here, right now. So, live. Forget yesterday. Forget the possibility of tomorrow. Live here. Now. Notice your breathing. Notice what's around you. Look at the sky. Gaze at the stars. Listen to the noise. Listen to the silence. Listen to yourself.

What's it telling you now?